198.2
My weight is not moving because I drink! I am stopping during Lent and I really just need to focus on that right now but need really to just stop. I have no self control. I am doing well not eating too much food at once as long as I am not drinking then all control goes out the door.
My hip or a muscle in my butt to be more specific is really bothering me but not as bad as before I started walking like a runway model. lol. I have decided that I am as stiff as a board. I go to Zumba and I am really stiff. I feel like I am really moving then I look in the mirror and I look like a 2x4.
So tomorrow I start my colon cleanse and Wednesday I go in at 6:00 am for my colonoscopy and at 11:00 I have a polyp and external possibly internal hemeroidectomy. It is going to hurt like hell.
So I am down. I got all dressed to go to the gym. I even had my shoes on and I didn't go. Pathetic! I am not having a period but I am still crazy. Who knows what I am going to be like when I stop drinking. God will help me but UG.
OK I just had to get this off my chest.
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