Saturday July 17 (Before pictures)

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Things I am looking forward to!
Touching the ground
No PAIN!
Keeping up with my family
Not sweating so much (have alwyas been sweaty so maybe it won't go away)
Walking without getting out of breath in 10 seconds
No blood preassure meds
Not having to ask people to pick things up for me

Friday July 16

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Went to Costco with Lucas today. Got protien with $3 off for each package. See ya tomorrow.

Thursday July 15

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Yesterday was not a good eating day. Well it was. I ate a lot. I decided to eat my larger meal at mid day and was going to have a protien shake for dinner but we went out and I ate a 450 cal meal which wasn't too bad but then went home and had popcorn. My popcorn is deadly. I need to go to Costco today. They have a liquid protien I want to try. I am really dragging today. Wonder if it is all the salt I've been eating?!

I hate smelling the food that other people cook or I cook for them that I can't eat. I need this surgery because when plan changes I won't be able to mess up as bad because my stomach will only be 2 0z.

Wednesday July 14

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I ate wayyyyyy tooo many almonds yesterday but they left the house so I am good now. I also had a chili cheese and onion omlette and it hurt so I will try to remember the bad feeling.

I have been getting a lot of support from people via email and facebook. I really appreciate it but please feel free to post comments and share as much as you want/can. You would be suprised at how many people struggle. I know I am not the norm and don't mind sharing every little detail of my life but I think people feel better when they know that it's not only them.

OK todays worry! I am very worried about what I am going to do once I lose some of this weight. Right now I spend most of my day on the computer and do very little. I am excited to be able to touch the ground but I am worried about my ADD and being productive. I am alergic to lists but I think I might have to get use to them. I have to get use to these because I think it is the only way I will be able to get things done. You see, most people see lists as a way to feel successful when they get things checked off. I see lists as my obismal failings when I don't get things checked off. I am the queen of half jobs. I know that I have to break my lists down from jobs into tasks. That way I can check off small accomplishes instead of feeling like I never accomplish anything which I do just not big things.

I think I might make a good ADD coach someday. I am good at figuring what is wrong but doing it is a different story so if I can tell someone what to do it will be a lot easier.

I walked 1.9 miles with my pal Brenda yesterday and a shorter walk the day before. Today I and hopefully Blaine will go to Anns to go swimming.

In the great words of Ann

Andi out!

Tuesday July 13

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Happy Birthday Kyle! So I did pretty well yesterday except for a couple of screaming and swearing outbursts. Nathan says I should move to the trailer. Glad he wasn't her for the yelling cuz he might have made me move out. Mark is more forgiving. The other two just role their eyes at me and ignore me.

Thank you Brenda for coming over and walking with me last night. I used my trekking poles and it was really good. I would have fallen 3 times without them.

I can do this. It's amazing the difference of I can do this to - It'll never work makes to your brain. I try to not let that Lilipution in my head. Does anyone know what I am talking about?

I hate feeling hungry. What is it about feeling hungry.

Monday July 12

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So I am right back where I was with my weight when I started this blog. My goal between now and clear liquids is to get as physically and mentaly prepared as possible. I am going with an "I know I can attitude." I had my coffee with my tablespoon of half and half. I think I'm just going to cold turkey the coffee and 1/2 and 1/2 at clear liquid day and go to green tea. For breakfast I had Snoqualimie Falls oatmeal with chopped apple and almonds. I have to get off sugars again because I think it will make it way easier to go to the clear liquids if I am use to not having processed sugar.

7/11/2010

My surgery has been approved and is scheduled for August 5. I have been on vacation for 2 weeks so now I am going to get serious about preparing for this surgery. The paperwork from the doctor says a clear liquid diet for TWO WEEKS. I am going to have to do some serious hypnosis in order to get through this. And not my cds, just Andi telling Andi that she can do this. Please pray for my family and close friends because I can really be a BITCH. It is worth it. I need to shrink my fatty liver in order to have a more successful surgery. My friend who had surgery May 21 is a great motivation for me and I know it will all be worth it. I must have positive self talk! So many things will be better and it's just two weeks of being excruciatingly hungry. Ha Ha. I was looking at a blog of someone who has had this surgery and she loves to cook and she still cooks. My only fear is cooking for my kids who are normal and don't need special meals. Mark wouldn't mind eating what I cook but doing for the boys is going to be hard. We will see. It's more me feeling guilty. OK. So that is my update. I will be better about updating and you better believe that I will be bitching and complaining about how hungry I am. lol