Sept. 12 2011

173.0

I have gotten as low as 169. I use to think that I wanted my goal weight to be 170 but I have decided that I don't want to go above 170 so I need to get down to 160 in order to have a bit of a cushion. I don't want to hover between 170 and 180. I want to hover between 160 and 170. This is going to be a challenge.

My stomach is stretching a I knew it would. I feel hungry and I still love to eat, get cravings and eat when I am not hungry. I know I said that all the bad habbits were still there and that the surgery did not fix them but right now I am really having to deal with them. I am contemplating hypnosis. I have always believed in it and so much of my eating is mental.

Before I try that though I am going to physical therapy. I have maxed my out of pocket for the year so I get 30 visits to PT covered at 100%. My right side still hurts all the time. The biggest part of the pain is from my knee to my hip into my pelvis. I go tomorrow and I sure hope they can help me. I really don't mind exercising. I just don't want it to hurt all the time. I lose sleep because of the pain.

So self talk. Andi - You are not hungry. It's ok to feel hungry. You feel uncomfortable if you eat icecream so why can't you feel a little discomfor feeling hungry? It's ok to feel hungry. You are not going to die.

I am not drinking my protien right now. I wasn't losing and needed to take off some more and when I stopped I did. I am starting up again soon. Protien helps with my hunger issues. I have been eating a lot of wilted spinach lately. With pine nuts onions and garlic. Oh so yummy.

I have been making sandwiches for the boys. I have not been eating bread so I have been wrapping meat and cheese. The cheese is not my friend but it is oh so yummy. Brie and smoked gouda are my current weaknesses. The weather is cooling down so I will start cooking again. We try to not turn the oven on when it is hot.

I would like to find someone who like to ride bikes. Walking is so boring to me.

Did I write enough? Nope. I read a couple of older posts and decided to come back and write a little more.

I am still sober. I have chose no to seek therapy. Probably not the best idea. I may change my mind since it should be free for the remainder of the year. I miss drinking but I know it's just something I can not do. It was killing me and I had NO control. I wish I could go out and have a glass of wine or a pint of beer but I can't stop at one or two or three so I just can't drink. I went to an out patient re hab and talked to them. I told him that I had gastric bypass and he said that a lot of people have been checking in that had that procedure. Alcohol does not mix with GB surgery. OK maybe this is enough now.

My friend Marie passed away Aug. 30. She followed my blog and was very supportive. I will miss her support.