173.0
I have gotten as low as 169. I use to think that I wanted my goal weight to be 170 but I have decided that I don't want to go above 170 so I need to get down to 160 in order to have a bit of a cushion. I don't want to hover between 170 and 180. I want to hover between 160 and 170. This is going to be a challenge.
My stomach is stretching a I knew it would. I feel hungry and I still love to eat, get cravings and eat when I am not hungry. I know I said that all the bad habbits were still there and that the surgery did not fix them but right now I am really having to deal with them. I am contemplating hypnosis. I have always believed in it and so much of my eating is mental.
Before I try that though I am going to physical therapy. I have maxed my out of pocket for the year so I get 30 visits to PT covered at 100%. My right side still hurts all the time. The biggest part of the pain is from my knee to my hip into my pelvis. I go tomorrow and I sure hope they can help me. I really don't mind exercising. I just don't want it to hurt all the time. I lose sleep because of the pain.
So self talk. Andi - You are not hungry. It's ok to feel hungry. You feel uncomfortable if you eat icecream so why can't you feel a little discomfor feeling hungry? It's ok to feel hungry. You are not going to die.
I am not drinking my protien right now. I wasn't losing and needed to take off some more and when I stopped I did. I am starting up again soon. Protien helps with my hunger issues. I have been eating a lot of wilted spinach lately. With pine nuts onions and garlic. Oh so yummy.
I have been making sandwiches for the boys. I have not been eating bread so I have been wrapping meat and cheese. The cheese is not my friend but it is oh so yummy. Brie and smoked gouda are my current weaknesses. The weather is cooling down so I will start cooking again. We try to not turn the oven on when it is hot.
I would like to find someone who like to ride bikes. Walking is so boring to me.
Did I write enough? Nope. I read a couple of older posts and decided to come back and write a little more.
I am still sober. I have chose no to seek therapy. Probably not the best idea. I may change my mind since it should be free for the remainder of the year. I miss drinking but I know it's just something I can not do. It was killing me and I had NO control. I wish I could go out and have a glass of wine or a pint of beer but I can't stop at one or two or three so I just can't drink. I went to an out patient re hab and talked to them. I told him that I had gastric bypass and he said that a lot of people have been checking in that had that procedure. Alcohol does not mix with GB surgery. OK maybe this is enough now.
My friend Marie passed away Aug. 30. She followed my blog and was very supportive. I will miss her support.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Thursday Aug.25
172ish
I reached my goal last week. I got to 169. Greatest fear is that I haven't done enough to change behaviors and weight will come back. I guess being worried about it is a good thing. Eating slowly is important and I really really need to work on that. My body pain is another issue. I am moving well but not pain free. My right side is in constant pain. Shoulder neck hip.
Today I am suppose to go see an accupuncturist and herbal medicine Dr. I am anxious about it due to the money it will cost and whether it can help.
I need to do a better job drinking protien. I need to make good food choices. I need to keep my portions small. I NEED TO EAT SLOWLY!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Wed. July 5
186 FUCK!
I have not had a drink since June 26! I am on valium to help me not drink. I am a zombie but that won't be for too much longer. I am eating more which is bad but will call a therapist soon and try to get help with all my mental illnesses!
Thank you to all of my friends for their support. I couldn't do it without you. This includes my kids who are now playing lots and lots of Rummy.
Andi
I have not had a drink since June 26! I am on valium to help me not drink. I am a zombie but that won't be for too much longer. I am eating more which is bad but will call a therapist soon and try to get help with all my mental illnesses!
Thank you to all of my friends for their support. I couldn't do it without you. This includes my kids who are now playing lots and lots of Rummy.
Andi
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Thursday June 30
179.7
I may have to change this from my weightloss blog to my soberity blog. Last Saturday night was my last drink. I went out and had a great time but spent over $150 that we don't have. I have NO control. I black out all the time and I am drinking everyday. I checked into inpatient re hab but the insurance won't cover it. So I checked into intensive out patient. That is not for me. Soooooooo I called the insurance and they said that I can see a private chemical dependancy counselor. So that is what I am going to do. I went to my Dr. the other day and she prescribed me valium to get through withdrawls and another drug to take in a couple of weeks that helps with cravings. I feel good. It's nice to not have that shakey irritable feeling in the evening. More later.
I may have to change this from my weightloss blog to my soberity blog. Last Saturday night was my last drink. I went out and had a great time but spent over $150 that we don't have. I have NO control. I black out all the time and I am drinking everyday. I checked into inpatient re hab but the insurance won't cover it. So I checked into intensive out patient. That is not for me. Soooooooo I called the insurance and they said that I can see a private chemical dependancy counselor. So that is what I am going to do. I went to my Dr. the other day and she prescribed me valium to get through withdrawls and another drug to take in a couple of weeks that helps with cravings. I feel good. It's nice to not have that shakey irritable feeling in the evening. More later.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Monday June 20
182.3
I got down to 180 but there have been too many graduation parties. Today I am at 182.3. I made a promise 4 years ago to a kid (who just graduated from highschool) that if I lost at least 100 lbs. that he could shave my head. So sometime this month I will be bald for a day or two. My hair grows very fast. My eating is going ok. I need to exercise more and eat more veggies. Nathan just graduated from high school and that was an emotional time. It went fabulously. We are so proud of him.
I got down to 180 but there have been too many graduation parties. Today I am at 182.3. I made a promise 4 years ago to a kid (who just graduated from highschool) that if I lost at least 100 lbs. that he could shave my head. So sometime this month I will be bald for a day or two. My hair grows very fast. My eating is going ok. I need to exercise more and eat more veggies. Nathan just graduated from high school and that was an emotional time. It went fabulously. We are so proud of him.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Monday May 2
187.8!!!!! WTF
My greatest fear is gaining my weight back! The surgery only helps you get it off. You have to make changes. Right now my eating and drinking isn't going very well. And I have a period like once every 3 months so tha doesn't help when I gain a pound or two and can't figure out if it is PMS or not.
I have been watching 2 TV shows that are helping. One is Ruby. It is on Style and it is the weightloss journey of a gal that was up to like 600 lbs. It goes through all her mental issues. It really helps me to think about why I eat. I am a food addict. I think about food all the time. The other show is on OWN and is called Addicted to food. It is about a 60 day all inclusive intreatment program for food addicts. You can be an over eater, anorexic or bullemic. They really get to the heart of these peoples problems. They us the 12 step method and I have found this show very helpful. I looked into the program. It is in Texas. It is $700 per day! So I am on my own. I will watch very carefully. lol I am doing lots of self talk. I am telling myself that I need to focus on me and my problems and not get into other peoples problems (I have done this my whole life). Getting into other peoples problems is an excuse to avoid my own issues. That has not always been apparent to me. This show helps me see that. I have issues about my up bringing too and I am self talking that.
Well I just wanted to share this with ya'll. If anyone watches these shows and wants to talk about stuff I would love someone to chat with. Here or on FB.
Andi
My greatest fear is gaining my weight back! The surgery only helps you get it off. You have to make changes. Right now my eating and drinking isn't going very well. And I have a period like once every 3 months so tha doesn't help when I gain a pound or two and can't figure out if it is PMS or not.
I have been watching 2 TV shows that are helping. One is Ruby. It is on Style and it is the weightloss journey of a gal that was up to like 600 lbs. It goes through all her mental issues. It really helps me to think about why I eat. I am a food addict. I think about food all the time. The other show is on OWN and is called Addicted to food. It is about a 60 day all inclusive intreatment program for food addicts. You can be an over eater, anorexic or bullemic. They really get to the heart of these peoples problems. They us the 12 step method and I have found this show very helpful. I looked into the program. It is in Texas. It is $700 per day! So I am on my own. I will watch very carefully. lol I am doing lots of self talk. I am telling myself that I need to focus on me and my problems and not get into other peoples problems (I have done this my whole life). Getting into other peoples problems is an excuse to avoid my own issues. That has not always been apparent to me. This show helps me see that. I have issues about my up bringing too and I am self talking that.
Well I just wanted to share this with ya'll. If anyone watches these shows and wants to talk about stuff I would love someone to chat with. Here or on FB.
Andi
Friday, April 29, 2011
Friday May 28
Quick note to self
Hunger has been a big issue this week. Eating more isn't good and didn't work. Protien shakes were not working for more that about 30 minutes. Yesterday for breakfast I ate a small handful of pecans. There were no funny side affects (lots of times things don't go down well) and I stayed satisified for hours. This morning I had a protien shake with five small strawberries and a small handful of pecans. The protien seemed to go down better than usual. Tomorrow I may just chew the pecans because I like to chew.
Also: I was depressed because I had stayed home for two weeks. Thanks to Teri for hanging out with me. It's always a good time.
Hunger has been a big issue this week. Eating more isn't good and didn't work. Protien shakes were not working for more that about 30 minutes. Yesterday for breakfast I ate a small handful of pecans. There were no funny side affects (lots of times things don't go down well) and I stayed satisified for hours. This morning I had a protien shake with five small strawberries and a small handful of pecans. The protien seemed to go down better than usual. Tomorrow I may just chew the pecans because I like to chew.
Also: I was depressed because I had stayed home for two weeks. Thanks to Teri for hanging out with me. It's always a good time.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Tuesday April 27
185.7
I am in a funk. I posted that on Facebook and someone mentioned that it must be time for me to blog. I just wanted to say thank you to that person because I don't always realize what I need but blogging really does help me.
I have had Eli since May 13. I love the little guy but I leave myself out of the picture when I have him. I haven't been making time to exercise and I have been in a lot of pain. I havn't been eat the best and I have been drinking WAY too much.
Everyday I tell myself that my brain and habbits aren't different because of my surgery. I have to think about what to eat and not eat and fight the cravings. It is a struggle.
Things that are better: I can move without feeling like I am dying. I am gardening and walking. I can jog some. I can pedal my bike standing up very easily. I can stand at a mariners game in the concessions for 8+ hours without much trouble.
Things that I thought would be better that aren't:Touching the ground. I still don't have the hip rotation that I use to and it really makes it hard to pick things up. It's better but not where I want it to be.
Things that aren't better: My brain. I am still lathargic and hate cleaning. I didn't expect it to get better on it's own but it still brings me down at times.
Eli needs food. See ya soon.
I am in a funk. I posted that on Facebook and someone mentioned that it must be time for me to blog. I just wanted to say thank you to that person because I don't always realize what I need but blogging really does help me.
I have had Eli since May 13. I love the little guy but I leave myself out of the picture when I have him. I haven't been making time to exercise and I have been in a lot of pain. I havn't been eat the best and I have been drinking WAY too much.
Everyday I tell myself that my brain and habbits aren't different because of my surgery. I have to think about what to eat and not eat and fight the cravings. It is a struggle.
Things that are better: I can move without feeling like I am dying. I am gardening and walking. I can jog some. I can pedal my bike standing up very easily. I can stand at a mariners game in the concessions for 8+ hours without much trouble.
Things that I thought would be better that aren't:Touching the ground. I still don't have the hip rotation that I use to and it really makes it hard to pick things up. It's better but not where I want it to be.
Things that aren't better: My brain. I am still lathargic and hate cleaning. I didn't expect it to get better on it's own but it still brings me down at times.
Eli needs food. See ya soon.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Sunday March 27
188.7 I have be going to thrift stores for clothes. What a treasure. I am getting stuff I could never afford to buy. This weekend Goodwill's green tag items are all 50% off. I got a pair of Banana Repubic jeans SIZE 10 for $3. I got a Nordstrom brand cami for $1. I got a pair of Lululemon crops last week for $6.99. They are worth $86. I think this is the most fun part of this experience so far. I ate ICECREAM! If you have GB. DON'T EAT ICECREAM. Well don't eat more than a couple of small bites. It's enough and it won't hurt. It hurt and I had 2 table spoon scoops. I hate my tummy and my boobs. I need surgery! I need MONEY! My butt is getting better. Did I say that I don't have butt cancer? YEY, YAY!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Sunday March 20
193.5
WOW! My high was 294 so I am down 100 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooo hooo go me! I feel sooooo much better.
So here is why I am writing today. I went to Blaine's first track meet of the season the other day. I saw someone there thay I hasn't seen me. She didn't recognize me. I didn't say anything to her because she was on the phone and to be honest I wasn't sure it was here. When she recognized me it was "WOW Andi is that you? I didn't recognize you. You look fantastic." My mom was behind me and after I was done chatting my mom said "and that is exactly why you had that surgery." I was speachless and if you know me that is hard to do. I can't even remember if I corrected her or not. The way a look is a bonus but in no way shape or form was it the reason or even in the top five reasons why I had my surgery. I really can't believe that the person that birthed me is that superfical to truly believe that my looks had anything to do with my decision. It just goes to show 2 things. One: She doesn't know me. Two: she has never been overweight.
#1 reason I had my surgery - PAIN! I was in constant pain. I was not lifting my right foot anymore without pain. The pain did not go away imediately but it was the reason for the surgery.
#2 - Mobility. I could not move. I could not touch the ground. I could not look behind me.
#3 - Stamina. I had NONE. I was doing less and less for myself. It took awhile to see this but I noticed that I wasn't doing much and it continued even after I lost a lot of weight. Bad habbits die hard. I would say "hey can you do this for me?" and realize that I could do it myself.
#4 - Blood pressure. I wanted off of it and I am.
#5 - Depression.
Looking better is a bonus but not a reason and to be honest. I don't feel like I look that great. Want to see my belly or my boobs or my under arm giggle wiggle or my chin gobble wobble? They are all GROSS! I don't regret the surgery and I will get all that nasty stuff taken care of eventually but for now. I am enjoying feeling better.
I did 20 tricep bench dips today and I did the well! I can do so much more than I could 7 months ago. I feel awesome and that is what I want to remember.
My mom also keeps telling me about her neighbors daughter and how she had this surgery and how she gained more weight back then what she had weighed before! Uggggg! This surgery was a TOOL! It is not the end all for my weightloss. I am in charge of that but why do I have to keep telling her that. I have already said it. Quit being so fucking negative Patience.
OK I think I have gotten this off of my chest. That is what this blog is for me. It is my place to say what ever I want.
Don't know if I have talked about my surgery but I had my external hemeroids and my Polyp removed. It is the most damn painful thing that I have ever done. Pain pills have been my best friend. I walked a mile today and that kind of bugged the "area". Oh well. It is getting better. I don't have butt cancer and I have the best best friend in the whole wide world. Gayle was with me at my check up. She had something else to do just like everyone else did but she truly felt that being with me was more important. She is truly the best BF that anyone could ever hope for. Thanks My Gayle.
Till next time. Work hard and do it for you! You are worth it.
Andi
WOW! My high was 294 so I am down 100 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooo hooo go me! I feel sooooo much better.
So here is why I am writing today. I went to Blaine's first track meet of the season the other day. I saw someone there thay I hasn't seen me. She didn't recognize me. I didn't say anything to her because she was on the phone and to be honest I wasn't sure it was here. When she recognized me it was "WOW Andi is that you? I didn't recognize you. You look fantastic." My mom was behind me and after I was done chatting my mom said "and that is exactly why you had that surgery." I was speachless and if you know me that is hard to do. I can't even remember if I corrected her or not. The way a look is a bonus but in no way shape or form was it the reason or even in the top five reasons why I had my surgery. I really can't believe that the person that birthed me is that superfical to truly believe that my looks had anything to do with my decision. It just goes to show 2 things. One: She doesn't know me. Two: she has never been overweight.
#1 reason I had my surgery - PAIN! I was in constant pain. I was not lifting my right foot anymore without pain. The pain did not go away imediately but it was the reason for the surgery.
#2 - Mobility. I could not move. I could not touch the ground. I could not look behind me.
#3 - Stamina. I had NONE. I was doing less and less for myself. It took awhile to see this but I noticed that I wasn't doing much and it continued even after I lost a lot of weight. Bad habbits die hard. I would say "hey can you do this for me?" and realize that I could do it myself.
#4 - Blood pressure. I wanted off of it and I am.
#5 - Depression.
Looking better is a bonus but not a reason and to be honest. I don't feel like I look that great. Want to see my belly or my boobs or my under arm giggle wiggle or my chin gobble wobble? They are all GROSS! I don't regret the surgery and I will get all that nasty stuff taken care of eventually but for now. I am enjoying feeling better.
I did 20 tricep bench dips today and I did the well! I can do so much more than I could 7 months ago. I feel awesome and that is what I want to remember.
My mom also keeps telling me about her neighbors daughter and how she had this surgery and how she gained more weight back then what she had weighed before! Uggggg! This surgery was a TOOL! It is not the end all for my weightloss. I am in charge of that but why do I have to keep telling her that. I have already said it. Quit being so fucking negative Patience.
OK I think I have gotten this off of my chest. That is what this blog is for me. It is my place to say what ever I want.
Don't know if I have talked about my surgery but I had my external hemeroids and my Polyp removed. It is the most damn painful thing that I have ever done. Pain pills have been my best friend. I walked a mile today and that kind of bugged the "area". Oh well. It is getting better. I don't have butt cancer and I have the best best friend in the whole wide world. Gayle was with me at my check up. She had something else to do just like everyone else did but she truly felt that being with me was more important. She is truly the best BF that anyone could ever hope for. Thanks My Gayle.
Till next time. Work hard and do it for you! You are worth it.
Andi
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Sunday March 13
195.6
I had hemeroid polyp removal surgery on Wednesday. I am very frustrated. I am on strong pain killers and can't go down on the meds without significant change in pain. I don't poop normal so I blew a stictch and it hurts. My family SUCKS and nursing and not only do they no longer want to take care of me they want me back taking care of them. I am near tears. I don't know when to cut back my pain meds. I can't stand the huffing everytime I ask for help. I am just pissed.
I had hemeroid polyp removal surgery on Wednesday. I am very frustrated. I am on strong pain killers and can't go down on the meds without significant change in pain. I don't poop normal so I blew a stictch and it hurts. My family SUCKS and nursing and not only do they no longer want to take care of me they want me back taking care of them. I am near tears. I don't know when to cut back my pain meds. I can't stand the huffing everytime I ask for help. I am just pissed.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Monday March 7
198.2
My weight is not moving because I drink! I am stopping during Lent and I really just need to focus on that right now but need really to just stop. I have no self control. I am doing well not eating too much food at once as long as I am not drinking then all control goes out the door.
My hip or a muscle in my butt to be more specific is really bothering me but not as bad as before I started walking like a runway model. lol. I have decided that I am as stiff as a board. I go to Zumba and I am really stiff. I feel like I am really moving then I look in the mirror and I look like a 2x4.
So tomorrow I start my colon cleanse and Wednesday I go in at 6:00 am for my colonoscopy and at 11:00 I have a polyp and external possibly internal hemeroidectomy. It is going to hurt like hell.
So I am down. I got all dressed to go to the gym. I even had my shoes on and I didn't go. Pathetic! I am not having a period but I am still crazy. Who knows what I am going to be like when I stop drinking. God will help me but UG.
OK I just had to get this off my chest.
My weight is not moving because I drink! I am stopping during Lent and I really just need to focus on that right now but need really to just stop. I have no self control. I am doing well not eating too much food at once as long as I am not drinking then all control goes out the door.
My hip or a muscle in my butt to be more specific is really bothering me but not as bad as before I started walking like a runway model. lol. I have decided that I am as stiff as a board. I go to Zumba and I am really stiff. I feel like I am really moving then I look in the mirror and I look like a 2x4.
So tomorrow I start my colon cleanse and Wednesday I go in at 6:00 am for my colonoscopy and at 11:00 I have a polyp and external possibly internal hemeroidectomy. It is going to hurt like hell.
So I am down. I got all dressed to go to the gym. I even had my shoes on and I didn't go. Pathetic! I am not having a period but I am still crazy. Who knows what I am going to be like when I stop drinking. God will help me but UG.
OK I just had to get this off my chest.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Feb. 24
198.5 Woooooot Woooooot Hahoooooooy!
Yesterday I ate home made breadsticks and like 1/4 stick of butter. It was yummy. I felt bad. Thanks to all of you who made me feel better. Today I made broccolli with BUTTER olive oil and garlic and a little parmessan. Better than breadsticks and yummy.
My goal weight is 170. I bought a swim suit top yesterday. I bought a large but need an xl.
My "problem" is a little better but I am still going to get surgery. Exercising is a chore right now. I really wish I enjoyed it more.
Yesterday I ate home made breadsticks and like 1/4 stick of butter. It was yummy. I felt bad. Thanks to all of you who made me feel better. Today I made broccolli with BUTTER olive oil and garlic and a little parmessan. Better than breadsticks and yummy.
My goal weight is 170. I bought a swim suit top yesterday. I bought a large but need an xl.
My "problem" is a little better but I am still going to get surgery. Exercising is a chore right now. I really wish I enjoyed it more.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Feb. 15
200.8
I am not eating because it hurts to poop. I went to the doctor (really the PA). He said it was a hemeroid but after looking at it he said it was an external polyp. He lanced it anyway even though he said it wouldn't help. Ya like I want a needle and knife put there when it won't help! Helloooooo. So this was on Friday and he said that they were going to refer me to a surgeon. Well today I called my surgeon (who did my colonoscopy and hemeroid surgery) because I am not waiting in pain anymore. OMG. I am not sleeping or eating much. I can't think about anything but the pain. When I see someone all I want to say is that my butt hurts! This isn't a way to live. I hope I don't have cancer. Not sure I can cope with that. So Thursday at 8:45 I am seeing the surgeon. I hope he can do something that will get rid of the pain right away. I can't stand this much longer.
I am not eating because it hurts to poop. I went to the doctor (really the PA). He said it was a hemeroid but after looking at it he said it was an external polyp. He lanced it anyway even though he said it wouldn't help. Ya like I want a needle and knife put there when it won't help! Helloooooo. So this was on Friday and he said that they were going to refer me to a surgeon. Well today I called my surgeon (who did my colonoscopy and hemeroid surgery) because I am not waiting in pain anymore. OMG. I am not sleeping or eating much. I can't think about anything but the pain. When I see someone all I want to say is that my butt hurts! This isn't a way to live. I hope I don't have cancer. Not sure I can cope with that. So Thursday at 8:45 I am seeing the surgeon. I hope he can do something that will get rid of the pain right away. I can't stand this much longer.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Thursday Feb. 10
202.5
Don't read this if you don't like TMI. Cuz this is definately TMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooo damn frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My asshole hurts sooooooooooooooooo bad that I think I am going to DIE. I have a hemeroid! A terribly painful hemeroid!. This is my blog where I can write anything so I am writing about my awful awful pain.
I need to find a new Doctor. I think I may have it narrowed down. It is funny listening to everyones opinions because lots of peole love and hate the same docs. I also have my hip/leg problem that is better but not gone and I have to get a colonoscopy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am kind of down today. I hate being in this much pain. I am using ointment. I have tried pushing him back where he belongs. I am ready to cut him out. Not realy. I have already had one hemeroid surgery. UG.
Ok I was doing really well with my roids until this surgery. Fiber doesn' absorb as well and I drink all of that protien so I have been pushing a lot more. I need to go to a doctor. I don't always have such a hard time just when I am between doctors.
OK. I feel better.
Thanks!
Don't read this if you don't like TMI. Cuz this is definately TMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooo damn frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My asshole hurts sooooooooooooooooo bad that I think I am going to DIE. I have a hemeroid! A terribly painful hemeroid!. This is my blog where I can write anything so I am writing about my awful awful pain.
I need to find a new Doctor. I think I may have it narrowed down. It is funny listening to everyones opinions because lots of peole love and hate the same docs. I also have my hip/leg problem that is better but not gone and I have to get a colonoscopy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am kind of down today. I hate being in this much pain. I am using ointment. I have tried pushing him back where he belongs. I am ready to cut him out. Not realy. I have already had one hemeroid surgery. UG.
Ok I was doing really well with my roids until this surgery. Fiber doesn' absorb as well and I drink all of that protien so I have been pushing a lot more. I need to go to a doctor. I don't always have such a hard time just when I am between doctors.
OK. I feel better.
Thanks!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Feb. 7 2011
202.9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow! I am down over 90lbs from when I first met with the surgeon for the first time. Today I put on a sweater that my Aunt Pat knitted for me when I was in college! How exciting. Eating is going ok. I could be doing better. I am doing best at not eating too much but I am not doing as well at eating the right things. I try but still get cravings.
PAIN! I have been in pain for so long and I am really affraid to look into it because I don't want a new hip. So I talk a lot about it because I hurt all the time. Well my friend Lori said the word gait (not sur how to spell it) to me one day. Meaning how I walk. That made me think about how I walk a lot sooooo. I mentioned my gait to Nikki one day and she said to walk with my hips. Like heel to toe. Like a runway model. Well you just wouldn't believe what a difference that made. I am not only practising my model walk I am also practising my Hula and belly dancing hip moves. I wasn't using my hip. The pain has gone away by about 50%. The level is the same when it is there but I can't get it to go away quite a bit. That is AMAZING!
Gotta get moving for the day. Talk to ya soon.
Andi
Wow! I am down over 90lbs from when I first met with the surgeon for the first time. Today I put on a sweater that my Aunt Pat knitted for me when I was in college! How exciting. Eating is going ok. I could be doing better. I am doing best at not eating too much but I am not doing as well at eating the right things. I try but still get cravings.
PAIN! I have been in pain for so long and I am really affraid to look into it because I don't want a new hip. So I talk a lot about it because I hurt all the time. Well my friend Lori said the word gait (not sur how to spell it) to me one day. Meaning how I walk. That made me think about how I walk a lot sooooo. I mentioned my gait to Nikki one day and she said to walk with my hips. Like heel to toe. Like a runway model. Well you just wouldn't believe what a difference that made. I am not only practising my model walk I am also practising my Hula and belly dancing hip moves. I wasn't using my hip. The pain has gone away by about 50%. The level is the same when it is there but I can't get it to go away quite a bit. That is AMAZING!
Gotta get moving for the day. Talk to ya soon.
Andi
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Jan. 11 2011
210.9
Congrats to Kyle and Melissa had Caleb Evan Hancock today at 7:14 AM. He weighs 7 lbs. 12 oz and is 20.5 inches.
Now back to me. My friend Nikki has helped me a lot when it comes to making protien drinks easier to make and eat. She also gives me good ideas about things to make and eat. Today I make an opened faced sandwich that I want to share. Get the Costco Bruchetta . It's 60 calories for 1/2 cup. Buy sandwhich thins and foster farms cooked chicken breast strips. All at Costco. I toasted the sandwhich thins and put 3 pieces of chicken across each slice and topped each slice with 1/4 cup of bruchetta. It was delicious. I can only eat one at time so it was 130 calories.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
January 5 2011
212.8
Happy New Year!!! I bought and put on a pair of size 14 jeans. They are not wearable yet but I could zip them up. I made it through Christmas. I exercised a lot and lost a little weight. I am drinking my protien at about 75%. I need to do a better job at taking vitamins. I need to get out more. I am doing more at home but I don't think my kids would agree.
I still have ADD and it's not going away. Behavioral changes are essential. Cravings are still here. I have modified them. Sweets have never been a biggy. Salty fatty things are my weekness and right now I still eat them but I eat less. Eventually my stomach will get bigger and I will be able to eat more and that is bad so I have to get them out of my system. I had my last drink Jan. 1. It was not working well for me. I was getting trashed. If this doesn't work for me I will probably do some type of rehab. It's not really that hard to not drink. The hard thing is that when I drink I can't control it.
Thngs are good. I feel good. I need a job.
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!!! I bought and put on a pair of size 14 jeans. They are not wearable yet but I could zip them up. I made it through Christmas. I exercised a lot and lost a little weight. I am drinking my protien at about 75%. I need to do a better job at taking vitamins. I need to get out more. I am doing more at home but I don't think my kids would agree.
I still have ADD and it's not going away. Behavioral changes are essential. Cravings are still here. I have modified them. Sweets have never been a biggy. Salty fatty things are my weekness and right now I still eat them but I eat less. Eventually my stomach will get bigger and I will be able to eat more and that is bad so I have to get them out of my system. I had my last drink Jan. 1. It was not working well for me. I was getting trashed. If this doesn't work for me I will probably do some type of rehab. It's not really that hard to not drink. The hard thing is that when I drink I can't control it.
Thngs are good. I feel good. I need a job.
Happy New Year!
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