Oh boy! I did more physically today than I have in a very long time. I got out of bed! Ha. Took a shower, drove to Bremerton to get Eli for preschool, worked in the class with Eli (haven't done that since Lucas was in preschool), begged Nathan to take us to the fair to see Mark and Lucas, walked around the fair till I wanted to die, went to Albertsons for black beans and Rotelle and left them in the cart, came home and took a tub!

I am TIRED! Last night the boys and I went to Famous Daves and I had BBQ with sauce. It wasn't worth it. Quality was bad. A few more of these experiences may get me to understand to just eat my own food and take the time to cook. It doesn't help when I leave my beans in the cart at the store! Right now I really really really want to call Ann and go have a (10) margaritas and chips and bean dip. I never feel good afterward so I have to tell myself that but I still really want to. Ug. This is why I am fat. I am not good at saying no to myself. I was 288 last Sunday and today I was 283. It is good. I have drank 2 protien shakes, ate one apple and 25 almonds so far today and I am feeling pretty good. I am making black bean chilli for dinner. Hopefully I will make it and not ditch it for margaritas!!!! I haven't drank since Fat Tuesday but it sounds soooo good right now.