Tuesday April 27

281.7

PMS is a cruel reality in my life. I can go crazy during this time. Last night I ate popcorn. Some of you may not think this is a big deal but if you know me, you know how I make my popcorn. I cook it in oil and put (last night) about 3/4 of a stick of butter on it. I did not put any extra salt on. I usually put a lot of salt on. I ate a bunch last night and the rest today. I never know when I am actually PMS but whenever I start to feel this out of control eating or crazy emotions my friend comes within a day or so.

I ordered the hypnosis CDs today. It was a total scam website but I ordered only what I had planned on. The only reason I am ordering it is because I have done some hypnosis before and truely believe that I am a good candidate. I think I am in the right place for this. I do need a mp3 player though.

I am in so much pain today. My right side constantly hurts. My theory is that it is my panis (big fat ugly gross stomach flap) that is pushing down on my leg and nerves. It causes pain in my groin, over to my hip and muscle pain in my quad, up t my arm and shoulder. I am hoping that this is the cause of the pain and that losing the weight will eliminated the pain and I will be fine. If it isn't it, I have some weird disease.

OK so still no sugar like cookies, candy, icecream. Very little salt. Things taste better. I hurt but that will get better.

I had a great day with Nathan. We went to the mall then home then on the big hunt for a sports illistrated magazine for his English 102 class. No luck. Why didn't I think of Borders!